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My Body is Revolting

August 31, 2011 Fear, Fun 1 Comment

I just love a good double entendre, don’t you?

The real point I am trying to get across is that it feels like my body is working against me. I’m becoming paranoid about it, either because I can’t explain what’s going on or I don’t want to accept the explanations that are plausible. The evidence:

Last week, I had four zits on my face at one time. FOUR ZITS. I can’t remember a time when this ever happened, even during adolescence.

During the same time, I developed a canker sore in my mouth.

I also developed a stye-like sore on my left eye… except it was on the upper lid. It hasn’t gone away. It doesn’t hurt like a stye hurts anymore (it did in the beginning), but now it’s just a red bump on my eyelid.

It’s the off-season and I have been eating less (including consciously eating fewer carbs) to offset the reduced exercise with the intention of maintaining a reasonable level of “feeling good” about my body, how I look, and how clothes fit. On the contrary, it’s as though I am the new mascot for Stay-Puft.

I get weird pains in my back or arms or legs seemingly for no reason. I’ll be sitting there doing nothing (riding as a passenger in the car, for instance), and there will be a burning/pinching/stinging sensation somewhere that eventually goes away on its own as randomly as it came.

My fingertips also go numb at random times during the day. My fingers and toes will do this when I’m cold due to Raynaud’s Syndrome, but the randomness of why it’s happening now is somewhat troubling.

The obvious conclusion for a lot of these symptoms falls under HORMONES, right? But it isn’t/shouldn’t be that time of the month. Maybe that’s another “symptom…” I have the Mirena IUD (which I love love love) and I haven’t had a real period in four years. But I do still cycle and I know when I’m having PMS symptoms. JUST ASK MY HUSBAND. The things that are happening now are not coinciding with that cycle.¬†Please tell me it’s not perimenopause. I’m only 36 years old! Technically, I suppose I fall within the normal range for this to be an explanation, but I really hope it’s not.

Perhaps it’s just the calm after the storm from my last race and Argus dying? My body isn’t jacked up on adrenaline and endorphins and other forms of distress/eustress and is manifesting all the shit that was lurking beneath the surface.

I don’t know. It’s frustrating, that’s for sure. I have my Well Woman Exam (the first one in three years) scheduled for tomorrow, and I’m actually looking forward to it for the first time in my life. Not the actual¬†exam part… but the consultation. I just want her to tell me I’m healthy.

I don’t want to alienate any male readers I may have out there (are you there boys??), so let’s just assume that no news is good news on this one. I won’t belabor this female stuff if there isn’t good cause for it. Okay? If any of you gals can provide insight, I’d love to hear it!




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  1. I think it’s just got to be your body coming off of some serious work. I did notice that when I hit 35-36 that acne started up in a way that I hadn’t noticed before. I started using a face wash with some glycolic acid in it a few times a week, and it seemed to help. I do get weird pains from time to time, but not as frequently as you’re describing. Keep us posted on your wellness visit.

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